Head start

‘We dread the future only when we are not sure we can kill ourselves when we want to.’  ‘Having always lived in fear of being surprised by the worst, I have tried in every circumstance to get a head start, flinging myself into misfortune long before it occurred:

E.M.Cioran from The Book of Life

While the first part may not be true about every one’s life , especially those who do not contemplate suicide, the second part finds an echo in everyone’s past.

Many times I used to think if only could steal a march over fate , not by actually going through a possible misfortune brought by us on ourselves but by thinking up all the possibilities in which fate can inflict a misfortune . 

By thinking up all the possibilities we are depriving fate of the chance to surprise us. And if fate does send us the misfortunes from among the possibilities already thought up by us ,we are one up on fate. If,on the other hand, fate does not send us any in order not admit defeat, we manage to surprise fate and are  still one up on fate! We have had a  head start on our destiny.