Achieving certainty

Notes to myself on beginning a painting 
By Ricahard Diebenkorn
Attempt what is not certain.Certainty may or may not come later.It may then be a valuable delusion
https://bigother.com/2016/05/17/richard-diebenkorns-notes-to-myself-on-beginning-a-painting/

Attempt what is not certain. How correct ! If certainty does not come,as was the case with my poetical attempt today,there is at least a promise that it may be a valuable delusion. 

Was my poem a valuable delusion? I don’t believe it to be valuable  now when I  look back. Ab initio, if one knows it to be a delusion, it will not be a valuable delusion.But there is another thing.It may start out as  uncertain but may join other streams of thought within , somewhere along the way and a new certainty may finally emerge. The epigram that comes  at the end of the poem from somewhere seals the thought with a surprising finality.

Bead

“Arnold Bennett says that the horror of marriage lies in its “dailiness.” All acuteness of a relationship is rubbed away by this. The truth is more like this: life — say 4 days out of 7 — becomes automatic; but on the 5th day a bead of sensation (between husband and wife) forms which is all the fuller and more sensitive because of the automatic customary unconscious days on either side. That is to say the year is marked by moments of great intensity. Hardy’s “moments of vision.” How can a relationship endure for any length of time except under these conditions?”

A quote from Virginia Wolfe’s A Writer’s Diary taken from the Brainpickings blog.

I like the word “bead” used here. The image that comes to my mind is the little rain droplets forming and travelling on a wire ,until they become a luminous bead to drop down when other droplets come to form a bead and drop down likewise.

I like the usage “dailiness” to describe the circular lives of a husband and wife , bound within the confines of a structured relationship in a family unit consisting of husband, wife and children.